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design | host makeup is fun. i can alienate myself even further from my peers. well that school social mixer thing sucked... sort of hard. i played clue (and i was right in guessing it was Mr. Plum... i bet 100 yen... but so far no one's payed me.) then i watched finding nemo... with little glenn mostly. he's my freshman buddy. after that i meandered into the gym... big mistake. they were listening to some rap or something and i put in the cure... within five minutes everyone was gone. my eclectic taste with that sweet 1980's tang scared everyone of. they don't deserve robert smith. so i was sitting by myself (as i had chased everyone away) and i was looking at these people. they were playing dodgeball and basket ball and i realised that i hate them. so i left the gym. i bought a dr. pepper and sat between some tables in the hallway. i was sitting there, sipping my drink thinking of just how i was going to overcome the urge to stab myself in the eye as a huge migraine decided to pay me a visit. then little freshman buddy glen came and found me... ... he sat by me. he's such a nice guy. those stupid freshman girls are breaking his heart. he's going to get taller and fill out and they'll be sorry. so he tried to cheer me up because i guess i looked pretty bad... but i only brought him down. so we sat and talked for a while... very breakfast club. it made me feel good to explain to the little guy that teenagers are supposed to be miserable. then everyone got kicked outside to wait for our parents and glen left so i talked to josh. he's a nice guy... but he can be a real jackass sometimes. this was one of the nice guy times, and we also talked very breakfast club like. so. in a very steriotypical angsty teen journal entry, i went to a school social and had a sucky time, tried to join the crowd but found i could not and would not be accepted and succeded in crushing the happy spirit of a little freshman. it's sunday now and i'm going to church soon. want to hear a secret? for a while now i've been practicing with makeup. eyeliner and maskera and pressed powder and eyeshadow and decadant red lipstick. for quite the little while i've been wearing it around the house. yeah... i've been all made up with nowhere to go. so i'm wearing some makeup to church today... and if this goes over well i'll probably wear it to school. yeah. i think i've got the hang of it actually. gimme a kiss? makeup is fun. i can alienate myself even further from my peers. |