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design | host AH i've consumed a dangerous amount of caffeine for a normal person, let alone a mormon. i've been home all day-- yeah-- um... it's occuring to me that we're all just meaningless blobs of cells and molecules spinning through space. that's all we are, you guys. nothing matters. you don't matter. i don't matter. maybe it's the diet coke but right now nothing matters. my brain is fried on frankenstein motifs. oh my goodness. my hair smells so good- and the shampoo, guess what, it's the cheap kind. but that doesn't matter. nothing matters. we could all stop breathing and nothing would matter because we're all just big walking talking lumps of cells, electricity fired through gray goo, sucking in air created by other lumps of cells eating eating sleeping screwing eating crying living dieing and none of it matters and i need to eat something. YEAH i should eat something because nothing really matters. YEAH. none of this matters and someone left the DAMN door open and now the house is all cold but none of that matters either. AH. AH AH AH i'm freaking out. AH! the secret to life is- die as soon as possible. come come now everyone. FIVE DAYS TILL GREEN DAY and i can't wait but when i'm dead and gone nothing will matter even if it mattered to me because we're all just big fat lumps of billions of one cells and ask me if i care .AH. |